Well, today was full of adventurous homework doing. I have a liberal studies class, and I had to read a chapter of this book titled: "The Bible As Literature." I couldn't wrap my head around it. It was like passing through my head and none of it stuck in there. I don't remember a single thing. Except for the fact that the author thinks that the Bible should only be considered a fictional piece of literature. Grand.

I'm figuring out study abroad stuff nowadays too. Even though I'm super worried about my credit being shitty, and not having any money to get photography things. I'm just going to have to wait it out and make it work.

So go the complaints of a college student.

I'm working on Italian, but I really want to study Spanish. It's my favorite language. I feel like I should take Spanish and Italian, but I honestly don't think I could make both of them work at the same time. But I love Spanish so much. I'm just having difficulty choosing what I want in my life; and I really don't have the time for that sort of thing. Time spent deciding is time that my drop deadline for classes passes, and after drop deadline, I won't drop the course because I'll lose money, but if I don't use the class in my future, I'm also wasting money. And money is something that I obviously don't have and probably won't have for a great deal of time. Which depresses me.

My brothers are always talking about how someday they're going to make it big and become super rich. And we joke about how they had better watch out because I am beating down that path more quickly than they are. I'm serious though. I will not be stuck in the same situations that my mom was and is in. My family will be able to live comfortably and do the things that they want without having to worry about missing a bill or something like that. I won't spoil my children, but they will be able to do the extracurricular activities that they want to do. I just feel really bad that I'm sort of getting Charles all mixed into my situation if I don't get it straightened out before college is over. And even then, I'll still have student loans to pay off while he won't. It makes me feel so awful, but at the same time, I will never give him up.

He is the one. It sounds so cliche, but its true. I don't want to live without him, and I will never, ever give him up. I will fight for him, and chase after him for as long as we are both alive and able to give each other our love.