So.

Today got out of hand.
I turned to my Bible.
And to God.

Which I haven't done in ages.

I started with a Psalm. (My favorite things to read in the Bible)

And I stumbled across Psalm 10.

Psalm 10:1-6

¹Why, O Lord, do you stand far off?
Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?
²In his arrogance the wicked man hunts
down the weak,
who are caught in the schemes he devises.
³He boasts of the cravings of his heart;
he blesses the greedy and reviles the
Lord.
⁴In his pride the wicked does not seek him;
in all his thoughts there is no room
for God.
⁵His ways are always prosperous;
he is haughty and our laws are far
from him;
he sneers at all his enemies.
⁶He says to himself, “Nothing will shake
me;
I’ll always be happy and never have
trouble.”

And I've realized that I am the man that this Psalm was written about.
I scoffed at the idea that something bad could happen to me.

And I want to change that.
Bad things do happen.
I just need to grow up and accept that again.
I was good at doing that for so long, but once my life started going so smoothly, (or so I thought) I decided to toss everything out the window and go with it.
And that's where I went wrong.

And I swear I will never do that again.
I think I need to get verses 10:1 and 10:5-6 tattooed on my arm.
On the flat inside of my forearm so that I can always remember to never forget God and his plan for me.